To the Motherland...

I'm taking a journey with my good friend, Sameer Sampat, to India. What exactly this journey is going to entail... your guess is as good as mine. Our inner voices will be our guide. (along with our handy-dandy Lonely Planet)

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Friday, November 17, 2006

India Social Forum

DELHI - I'm not going to write too much about my experience at the ISF... basically, I wasn't going to be there, I wsa supposed to be in Ahmedabad at this time..... however, my arm was infected and oozing out pus, so I ended up staying in Delhi a little longer and got to attend the ISF. A lot of People's Movements (anti-Coca-Cola, anti-dam, etc.), a lot of Dalit rights movements, a lot of Socialist/Leftist movements.... basically, an anti-globalization, anti-America theme to the entire extravanganza.
We were there with SIDH for the 'official' launch of the Gap Year College. I really thought our session on "Integrated and Holistic Education" went well... but, there weren't that many 'random' attendees. Although, there are so many Delhi youth involved with SIDH now that there were still a lot of people there....

Here's an article about the ISF from infochangeindia (http://www.infochangeindia.org/features395.jsp)


Alternative confusion
By Ashok Gopal



The India Social Forum is about different political and social movements joining forces to fight the forces that are militating against local economies, community use of land, non-Western civilisations and cultures. But in the Babel that was the ISF, most of the voices got lost


There was, ultimately, too much of everything. A lot of it good. A lot of it bad. Some of it very bad.
There were too many issues being discussed at too many pandals. There was too much song and dance outside. There were too many films being shown in temporary theatres too close to each other. There was too much dust and thrown-away food. The distance between the two main venues was too much and there were too many clueless volunteers.
After witnessing all this, documentary filmmaker Anand Patwardhan had one thing to say upfront about the India Social Forum (ISF), New Delhi, November 9-13, 2006.
It was “disorganised”.
Many delegates used stronger words. Comparisons were drawn with the Asia Social Forum, Hyderabad, 2003, which was by common opinion a “better show”. (Comparisons with the World Social Forum, Mumbai, 2004, would be unfair as it was a far bigger event).
There was talk about how a few organisations like Ekta Parishad had dominated the ISF, bringing thousands of their supporters who drowned the presence of everyone else.
There were questions asked about where and how the thousands of pounds given by the funding organisations had been used.
The money certainly didn’t reflect in the infrastructure at the Jawaharlal Nehru stadium grounds where the ISF was held.
Basic needs were overlooked. Free drinking water should have been made available everywhere, but wasn’t. Women could not find clean and working loos. No thought was given to the aged and the disabled who had to walk, like the others, for over a kilometre from one ground to another.
And the more substantive objections to such a show, which have been raised since the beginning of the WSF process in Porto Alegre in Brazil in 2001, remained unaddressed.
Few ISF participants could probably give clear and coherent answers to the question posed by rickshaw- and taxi-drivers who stood outside the venues: Yeh kya ho raha hai? What is this about? What does it seek to achieve?
Compering the inaugural function of the ISF, women’s activist Kamla Bhasin said the event was an “attempt to bring together different political and social movements, to create a sangam”, to create a “wave of optimism and a shared vision of an alternative future”.
This sounds nice, but ducks the primary questions. How can one, for instance, create a sangam between a Gandhian NGO that believes in trusteeship and a leftist union that believes an “alternative future” can be realised only through abolition of private property?
And in what language, if at all, can a family of landless labourers meaningfully “share a vision” with a jet-setting academic who has never had to worry about the source of his next meal?
It is of course possible to pinpoint some common values and aspirations between people from diverse political, cultural, social and economic backgrounds. One can talk of peace, human dignity and dialogue. This is the language that caps the clamour of the UN General Assembly.
Is the WSF process then a non-government replica of the UN? Albeit more toothless?
WSF-process regulars—and there is a growing tribe of them—are not frustrated by such questions. Like a giant corporation or bureaucracy, the WSF process has acquired a life and momentum of its own, and it moves on regardless of what anyone thinks about it. As John Samuel, international director, ActionAid, who is a WSF-regular, pointed out, those who attack the process are also part of it. Nobody wants to be left out.
At ISF, New Delhi, two strategies adopted by the regulars were visible. In the first case, most of the high-profile speakers headed straight for the session they were supposed to address, delivered their number, exchanged pleasantries with other high-profile regulars and made a fast exit—towards their hotel room or the airport. Debate across experts from diverse fields and backgrounds did not happen.
Self-funded regulars adopted the strategy of international film festival regulars. You first get hold of the programme, then ignoring the speeches at the inaugural session, you mark out your must-sees, must-do’s and must-visits. Then you get a lay of the land—the layout of the venues—and make your own programme, which you follow diligently, ignoring everything else.
This is good commonsense but has a big pitfall: You can miss out on some of the most engaging and thought-provoking sessions.
And the most unfortunate aspect of ISF 2006 was there were a lot of these sessions, but the voices of speakers got lost—either because of the din outside or extremely thin attendance.
At the inaugural session, Eileen Kuttab, sociologist and activist from the Women’s Studies Programme at Birzeit University, Palestine, spoke about how the Palestine situation is related to the “human deficit” all over the world, which is the result of sustained “wars” against local economies, community use of land, non-Western civilisations and cultures. NGOs that have “pragmatically” chosen to work with, rather than against, this onslaught are as guilty as the warmongers for the “death of revolution”.
Few heard her forceful argument. Her speech was too long; no effort was made for simultaneous translation into Hindi, and by the time she had come to a third of her printed speech, most of the audience had drifted away.
A fundamental dimension of Eileen Kuttab’s argument was corroborated by Thomas Wallgren, professor, University of Helsinki, Finland, at one of the sessions held after the inaugural day. The author of Transformative Philosophy said that the celebration of the individual, which has been the hallmark of the history of the Western world over the past 500 years, inevitably leads to destruction of the community. “A Western man simply cannot accept community.”
If Wallgren’s argument was at too high a plane for the audience of activists from tribal areas, economist Jean Dreze, who made a rare appearance at a session on livelihoods, provided a concerted strategy suggestion to civil society organisations. The National Rural Employment Guarantee Scheme (NREGS), he said, provides a wonderful opportunity to organise and unionise landless labourers. It gives an opportunity to increase their bargaining power, and create a situation in which payment of statutory minimum wages by big farmers becomes unavoidable.
Later in the same session, economist Jayati Ghosh attempted to make sense of the latest NSS figures on employment. For the first time since the introduction of liberalisation policies, there has been a growth in employment in India in rural as well as urban areas.
However, according to her analysis, agricultural employment is not growing; in rural areas, people are moving from wage labour to self-employment. Increase in participation of rural women in manufacturing, she argued, was due to the huge increase in the number of women’s self-help groups. In urban areas, the growth of women’s participation in manufacturing was mainly because large numbers of unorganised women are being hired to work at low wages by small-scale units.
Ghosh’s arguments needed to be contested by pro-liberalisation economists. But of course none were present among the speakers or the thin audience.
At one of the well-attended events, an Assembly of Poor and Discriminated, economist Amit Bhaduri told dalit leaders that they didn’t have a ghost of a chance of capturing real power at the Centre unless they developed and forcefully used “alternative cultural symbols”. Gandhi’s use of Ram Rajya gave momentum and mass appeal to the freedom movement. Dalit leaders need to develop and propagate an alternative vision.
The Assembly of Poor was organised by a slew of networks. But there were at the ISF, other dalit organisations that had planned other sessions and events, and they were conspicuously absent at the Assembly of Poor.
Nobody benefited from such groupism. Nobody benefited either from the language barrier and a lot of avoidable confusion: seminar halls were not grouped according to thematic areas, or even clearly identified. Several sessions did not start or end on time. Some seminar venues were shifted at the last moment and some venues could be found only after extraordinary effort or sheer luck.
This combination of effort and luck was also required to pick up gems from the large number of stalls located in three grounds. You could pick up old books on Ambedkar and dalit issues at a 50% discount. You could get scarcely available works of the Gandhian historian Dharampal in English. You could get inexpensive and very thoughtfully produced children’s literature in Hindi from the Bharat Gyan Vigyan Samiti. You could get hard to find classics such as Rahul Sankrityayan’s Volga Se Ganga. You could get CDs of Indian folk music. And of course the usual range of SHG-made pickles and jams.
And if you had any energy left to watch films, you could watch an eye-opening but relatively unknown documentary like Autumn’s Final Country by Sonia Jabbar, who hadn’t made a film earlier, and has not made a film since. A sensitive recording of the displacement stories of four women in Kashmir, it brought out the human tragedy of the political conflict without bias or pontification.
But you needed luck. Too much of it. Because there wasn’t a directory detailing exhibitors and their wares. There wasn’t a low-priced and substantial document on all the films that were shown. There wasn’t even a clearly printed map in the programme document.
Organisers of ISF-type events would do well to heed a telling comment made by Jayati Ghosh’s mother. After trudging with Jayati for over an hour to find the venue of a seminar Jayati was to address, the old lady declared, “I tell you, this is why your alternatives don’t work.”

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Night-time Chat with Bharat Uncle

AHMEDABAD -
So, last night, I was sitting and chatting with Bharat Uncle. It’s really nice to have this home here, and be able to talk to Bharat Uncle whenever returning from wherever I’ve been! I basically have this house in Ahmedabad, Harsh’s house in Delhi, and Pawan-ji’s place in Mussoorie… three places that I’m wonderfully comfortable in, and they are also comfortable having me there (at least so I think). Of course, the thing that bothers me is that at each of these places… I am able to do very little work. Although, I at least try to take care of my own stuff…

Anyways, so I was telling Bharat-Uncle a little about jeevan vidya… We were talking about one of the bottom-lines of modern economics, of capitalism, of competition… resources are limited and needs are unlimited. From this statement, all kinds of decisions are made, conclusions are reached, etc. From this statement, competition is inevitable. “Have’s” and “have not’s” are inevitable. Basically, human beings will never be satisfied.

However, if one looks at the reality of our needs… our physical needs ARE limited, and resources are in plenty, while our mental/psychological/emotional needs are unquantifiable and continuous. Gandhi-ji said it as, “There is enough for everyone’s need, but not everyone’s greed”. And, he also said, “Live simply, so others may simply live.”

However, today… that extra pair of shoes is a necessity… having food that satisfies not only our nutrional needs but our taste buds is also a necessity. Having a 4 bedroom, two-storey house is also a necessity. Why is this so???

When I look at my needs.. I see that there are physical needs.. but there are also mental / emotional / psychological needs. I need respect, I need love, I need trust. I need this reciprocally… meaning I need to love others, and I need to be loved. That is a state of harmony that I enjoy being in. Basically, I need relationships, and I need knowledge… wisdom…. understanding.
Now, when I try to fulfill these needs for respect, for trust, for attention, etc… through physical means (clothing, make-up, big house, money, etc.), then my needs become unlimited. This is a double-edged sword. Because, 1) My needs will never be satisfied, because these mental/emotional needs are continuous and are wanted at every moment. These physical things may get me something close to respect temporarily, but it will never last. 2) I will always need something new, something better, something at the cutting edge. Therefore, I will continuously have to ‘earn’ money to buy these things. I will continuously have to overconsume, and whenever I am overconsuming, it means another is underconsuming. 3) My need for continuous, complete happiness cannot be satisfied by temporary spikes in pleasure. On the contrary, these temporary spikes, only cause more conflict and cloud my understanding. However, until I understand what it means to live harmoniously and happily, these temporary spikes in pleasure may be inevitable.
There are desires that come up as a result of pleasure to my 5 senses. I see chocolate, and I want it because I know it’s going to taste good. Yummy! And there are desires that come out of my Understanding, my knowledge, my wisdom (depending on what word you would like to use.) I understand that for me to best utilize my body, healthy food is necessary… and I see my body as an instrument to carry out the program for a happy and harmonious life. It is my tool… and I see the importance of it.. its true value. Therefore, I desire food that is healthy and nutritious (this does mean it can’t taste good).
As long as I don’t have that right understanding, as long as our desires continue to come from a result of the 5 senses… then, we will continue to be in a ‘reactive’ mode, instead of a mode of ‘action’.
When I look at my physical needs… they are not needed at every moment, but are needed occasionally and in limited quantity. I need food 3 times per day, and only a certain amount. I only need a certain number of pairs of clothing. I only need a certain amount of space to live, and even that, I only need it to protect me from the weather and the elements, and don’t need it all the time.

So, if the economic ‘bottom-line’ is changed to – Needs are limited, and resources are in abundance – how does this change things? Competition is no longer needed. Cooperation is a reality. Even in India today, enough food is produced to feed the entire population, but why doesn’t it reach them? Distribution? Is this a problem… because there isn’t enough competition? Or because there isn’t enough cooperation?

Anyways, so I was talking with Bharat Uncle. I also talked about the idea of an educational centre in India… myself, some other youth, pawan-ji, etc.. were talking about it… where this exploration and understanding of oneself and reality is started at a young age….Where the subjects are taught, but they are not separate and it is seen where they fit into the bigger picture. So a generation is brought up that has this understanding, and doesn’t have to try to break old conditionings and then come to this understanding.

Bharat Uncle.. said that the masses will always try to become happy through the senses… they will always run after the temporary spikes in pleasure. He said that this Understanding is for the individual, not for the masses.

I replied, ‘But isn’t the mass just a collection of individuals?”

He said, ‘Yes, in theory, the masses can change, but in reality.. they are a flow. Like a flowing river. Only a small percentage will be able to flow against the stream. The rest will not be able to make the U-turn. One Gandhi-ji is possible. And him having followers is possible. But 1,000,000 Gandhiji’s are not possible.’

I replied, ‘If we can have children start exploring themselves and what truly will bring them long-lasting happiness and harmony… if they are educated in this way to be responsible… then, isn’t it possible that they won’t get caught in this flow to begin with?”

He said, “The only thing one can do is change oneself… and live their life accordingly. One should never expect the masses to be with them. One should be ready to swim alone upstream against the flow. If you are able to share and people learn from you, then that’s great, that’s an extra. But, all you can work on is changing yourself and living accordingly.”

I still think that if there are enough individuals swimming against the flow…. that they can change the direction of the flow of the river altogether. Actually, I don’t agree with the flow analogy… because the flow has some type of fatalistic tinge to it, because rivers only flow one way. But, society, people… they are going a certain direction because of their collective consciousness. It is nothing outside of them. They have the power to change the direction that they are going. Each individual decides which direction he/she wants to go. Water in a river does not have that power… the river flows in only one direction. Human beings have the free will to act and imagine and to change the flow in whatsoever direction they want… and when we truly realize what this power means… then, maybe, we’ll start realizing what freedom means (I’m going to assume that it’s very very different than what Mr. Bush means by freedom.)

Sunday, November 05, 2006

'Alternate'

Lately... I've been talking about the possibility of living in an 'alternate' space for the long-term.

I use alternate in quotes, because in actuality the space that we are talking about is a much more 'natural' space than the ones that we are in now. However, in today's dimented world, 'natural' has become 'alternate' and 'artificial' has become 'normal'.

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Mehdiganj - Coca-Cola Factory

So, once again, this entry wasn’t written in a timely fashion, and the Coca-cola factory area visit isn’t fresh on my mind, but I’m going to use my journal entries from the time… so, that should bring some freshness to this entry.

Basically, a little background… there is a Coca-Cola factory in Mehdiganj village, which is about 30-40 kilometers away from Benares. Recently, there was a widespread report in India that said that high levels of pesticides were measured in both Coca-Cola and Pepsi products. For this reason, there were a few institutions that stopped selling Coke and Pepsi products on their premise. However, for the villagers in Mehdiganj and surrounding villages, this is not their main grievance. Their main grievance is that Coca-Cola uses up 500,000 liters of water (according to the company… other estimates are even HIGHER!) per DAY! The water they use is the ground water… which is practically free-of-charge, with no restrictions to their usage. Water pumps and wells in surrounding villages have dried up… and the level of the water table has dropped considerably (according to a survey, in the last 10 years, the water level drop has been an average of 18 ft, while during the previous two decades combines, the drop was approximately 3 feet).

I was in Sarnath as there was a JV shivir going on there… but, my main purpose was to visit the Mehdiganj area. Tenzin, a few years back, was involved in the protests, so he had contacts with the local group, Lok Samiti, that is heading the protest. I met Suresh, who is part of Lok Samiti, at the JV Sammelan just a few days before I was in Sarnath.

Before I headed there.. I thought about how I wanted to approach Lok Samiti –

1) get their grievances in person (instead of reading them on a website)

2) Visit the villages & talk to villagers à mainly about the dropping water table & what else they feel are problems w/ having the plan there; does Coca-Cola provide jobs to locals? How do they feel?

3) Trace up the Coca-Cola ladder – who are the decision-makers in this process? Have you guys tried to talk with them? Does the main office (Atlanta) have any say?

4) What is the overall strategy of the movement? What are the future plans?

5) Talk about InSPIRE program and the possibilities…

When I got there, Nandlal Master, the leader of the Lok Samiti group, took me to a Hindu-Muslim Eid-Diwali Unity Celebration in a neighbouring village. The idea was definitely a positive one, since most of UP and the Benares are has always been known for its communal tensions.

Then, we headed back to their center… ate dinner and talked into the night. Basically, Lok Samiti is a local group that was started by local youth. They were inspired by JP Narayan, and are part of a wider loose network of Lok Samiti groups. Sometime in the mid to late nineties, the group was started by Nandlal who wanted to improve the education in the area, and started working with boys and girls. Other youth joined him as well. Sandeep Pandey (founder of ASHA for Education, and noted activist) was making some type of peace march with his group and it was going through this area. That was when Nandlal first met him… Sandeep found about Nandlal’s work, and soon, this Lok Samiti group was getting funded by ASHA for Education. Soon after, Coca-Cola bought the factory from Parle (who had built the factory but enver used it), and started operations in 1999-2000. Nandlal learned about the movement in Kerala and also started hearing complaints from the villagers about the company and their water usage.. this is when the protests started. They started completely locally… but now they are connected with a bigger movement as well, against water privatization.

Now, they have a ASHA-funded center… where some of the Youth live as well… even though their homes are within 1-2 km… they cook together, they work in the fields together, they work-out together, and they work together.. over-looking the various education centres that Lok Samiti has, being in charge of their theatre team, figuring out the next steps in their protest movement, etc. They welcomed me… and it was pretty cool staying with them… talked a lot with Suresh, Mahendra, and Nandlal.

Nandlal went through his life-story, Lok Samiti’s story, and their grievances. Both.. the grievances and Nandlal’s story can be found online at: www.medhiganj.com

I asked what their methods of protest were.. and what their overall strategy is. There were 3 main points -1) reduce their market by creating awareness amongst people about what’s going on, and getting people to boycott Coca-Cola; 2) Battle through the legal system… get cases filed against the Coca-Cola plant; 3) Fight a bigger fight against the privatization of water by reclaiming OUR water.

I was wondering if there was ever any kind of real dialogue with any of the decision-makers from Coca-cola. And, basically, there hasn’t been. In big groups, they have gone to the plant, and also have marched all the way to the head office in Gurgaon (Delhi)… and they have asked to have dialogue in front of everyone… but Nandlal said, “They don’t answer any of uor questions.”

I asked if there were ever any small meetings, and the reply was, “They shold address the entire community and their concerns. They have invited myself and a couple others for meetings, but we don’t go. We want them to talk to us in front of everyone, so there are now complications. They’ve already told us that they won’t shut the plant, but they want to talk about some compromise.”

He had referred to Gandhi when he was talking about their strategy of protest… and I said, “Gandhi always attempted at dialogue first. Even with Jinnah, he tried so much to talk to him one-on-one before Partition.. even with the British, dialogue was the first road.” He mentioned the Quit India movement, and I replied, “But the Quit India Movement occurred after all dialogue had failed.” He sad that they considered themselves in that situation with Coca-Cola.

Later… I talked to others about why they refused the meetings.. and another very important, relevant point was brought up. It is very common for these big companies to bribe villagers to stay quiet… or to bribe villagers into a compromise. They will try to bribe the leaders of the movement. Or, sometimes, they will bribe one section of the locals and not the other… to create in-fighting… divide-n-rule. So, if Nandlal and/or others would go into a meeting with them, and come out with any type of compromise… there is the high possibility that his fellow villagers would think that he was bribed. It is a no-win situation. On one hand, nothing comes out of a meeting. On the other hand, some type of compromise comes out, but Nandlal and others may be viewed up as taking bribes, and how would they know if they had all the villagers’ consent or not??

It’s a tough situation… because I told them… there’s no way to have a real dialogue in front of 1000 angry people, either…. The Coca-Cola people obviously would get defensive in a situation like that. But, I see their point as well….

I also went to the actual plant, and visiting the surrounding homes. Here is my journal entry from that visit:

“I went to the gate of the Coca-Cola factory yesterday – and talked to the guard. It was funny, because Mahendra, from Lok Samiti, took me there, but since if the guard saw him, they wouldn’t even talk to me… Mahendra stayed away from the area. The guard didn’t let me in and said that there are no tours allowed at this Coca-Cola plant. I asked him if I wanted a tour – who should I contact? I asked if he could give me a name and contact number à he said that he couldn’t, he wasn’t allowed to. He seemed like a really nice guy, and, of course, got nicer when I told him I’m from the U.S. I told him about InSPIRE and that we wanted to bring a group from the US here.

I told him, “On the advertisement of TV, Aamir Khan says, ‘Come see for yourself and take a tour of our plant.”

But the guard said, not at this plant, maybe at other plants in India.

I asked him if I could take pictures from the outside, he said, ‘no.’

I’m like, “How about if I cross the street and take one?”

He said that was okay.

It was an interesting encounter – that whole place is like a military establishment… with high walls with barbed, electrified wire. I talked to a few people/families around the plant – and heard their stories a little bit. I saw a dried up well that was 50 ft deep. That farmer now has a bore well that goes in 200 ft deep. The farmer said that just 9-10 years ago there was water in that well! Another nearby farmer said his bore well went down 300 feet!

I saw a lot of the videos that Lok Samiti has made… interesting stuff.. effective? Yeah. To rouse up support and spread awareness… but what is actually going to bring success to their movement? Is the closing of the plant the only measure of success… or are there others as well? Is getting more people aware and passionate about the issue a measure of success as well?

I talked more to Suresh about ‘dialogue’ – and another factor was brought up – if one goes in a small meeting and comes out w/ some sort of agreement – then people could question if they took a bribe or not. And this is a danger. So, the Lok Samiti people say, “we’ll talk to you one-on-one, but only with the entire community there, because they are the ones who are suffering.

Whoever I talked to in the villages, including the children knew about the movement… they knew what effects the plant was having on their water and all. It was really amazing to see such thorough support throughout the local area.

Overall… it was cool – even though it was only 2 nights, I feel that I’m basically friends with Suresh, Nandlal, and especially Mahindra. I really like the group.. it’s young people, taking initiative in their own community…”

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Jeevan Vidya Sammelan

Kanpur - The Jeevan Vidya Sammelan took place in Kanpur from the 26th of October to the 29th. I headed on over there with Anuradha-ji.. we left Dehradun on a 1 pm train on the 25th.. and got to Kanpur on the 26th morning. I would estimate that there were 200-250 people there.
The Sammelan basically consisted of the following:
- Baba-ji spoke for about 1-2 hours every morning
- There were 'presentations' on different 'issues' that were presented by Ganesh-ji, Sadhan-ji, Ransingh-ji, etc... some of the main folks who really have the understanding, and are living it. One question they talked about was -"Solution-centred approach, or Problem-centred approach". Another time, they talked about their vision for taking things forward... different projects and ideas.
- Any individual or any group that wanted to share their experiences with - their process of understanding, their practice of their understanding, and realizations; the activities that they are carrying out; future visions, future activities. This was reallly cool to hear alll the different things going on.... things that individuals are doing, and things that groups are doing as well.

I actually ended up sharing on the last day... my first large public-speaking in Hindi!!! Haha.. I'm pretty used to public-speaking, and wasn't really nervous... other than the moment right before I took the mike. But, overall, it went well... although when I said "city" in Hindi, it sounded like I was saying "lion". =P

Recently, jeevan vidya has been introduced to the President of India... you can read about it here -- http://www.indianexpress.com/story/11007.html, http://presidentofindia.nic.in/scripts/independencedetail.jsp?id=7

Some other writings/articles about JV are here... although to get a real idea of what's being talking about... 1) it has to be done in person and 2) it has to be explored by one's Self and 'seen/perceived'
http://www.rmaf.org.ph/Awardees/Lecture/LecturePandeySan.htm
Shane's blog --> http://sublimity.ca/

The following is a mumbo-jumbo of thoughts, journal entries, email excerpts, questions, etc....


28/10/06 -- Journal Entry
Yesterday was awesome! For the first time in recent memory, I reallly felt like I WANT to understand more & deeper. Sadhan-ji, Ganesh-ji, Ransingh-ji, and Pawan-ji all spoke (Sadhan-ji lives with Baba-ji in Amarkantak, Ganesh-ji is an incredible person and has his center outside of Kanput. Ransingh-ji was written about way earlier in the blog. Sampat and I spent 7-8 days with him in his village. These three are the three that are commonly thought to have the most complete understanding. These blogs are tougher to write now, because all the people I meet, all the things I do, all the places I go to, all the issues I write about... they're all connected now. And without the propoer context, it's really hard to get the full picture of what I'm trying to say, or where I'm coming from... anyways.. it's still worth a shot.) ... pretty much back-2-back... about their visions for future plans... on how to take things forward... and, for me, it was just really powerful and energizing.
I'm excited about InSPIRE. I'm excited about Swaraj Shiksha Kendra (or Swaraj School?). I'm excited about having established relationships with people like Pawanji, Ganeshji, Sadhanji, Arya-ji, Preveenji, Mridu, Manish-Rashmi, Chaiti, Sumati, Ankit, Anuradha--ji, etc.
I defnitely need to take me Hindi to the next level -- to really be able to communicate FULLY and be 100% comfortable in the language... and to be able to read higher level Hindi as well.. and to understand.
Being here, I feel like I'm a part of something meaningful, even though I'm not really doing anything... but it's something within, the stithi (the state within me) has change, and the gati (the flow - my outward actions) is ready to follow.
I definitely need to focus on relationships - I don't think I've understood (see, perceived) what JV has to say about it.... I partially know it logically, but I haven't seen the reality of it within me or my life. Manav Sadhna, to me, is a beautiful example of quality relationships, and so is/was Swadhyay. I will be more aware of my relationships w/ the other... my expectations, different emotions, why they came about, etc...

31/10/2006 - Email to Sampat
THe JV Sammelan was this past week. It was in Kanpur. It was pretty cool actually... a few folks from SIDH went, as did Mridu and Ankit.... and met many others. It was good to see Arya-ji again, Ganesh-ji, Satya-prakash-ji, etc. etc... many others as well. And at the Sammelan, a lot of the focus is on the "program"... because everyone there has pretty in-depth JV background... so, it's a lot of sharing about the different programs/activities that people are doing and how people can cooperate and what's beneficial and what's not. There was a session on Solution-centred action, vs. Problem-centred Action... which was pretty good. And of course.. people there from all walks of life.... the ruralest of rural villages and the elitist of Delhi... it ran the gammot.
It's interesting because Vidya is all about having Right Understanding... and once you are in this process, and once your achieve this Understanding, then you can holistically tackle any problem... I feel that some people that I meet for the first time here, before they even get to me... they're already tring to find out my problems and 'solve' them for me. I know that there is no ill intention behind it... but I think people get a little too 'happy' when they think they've found the 'path'... haha, someone here had a term for it... 'over-jaagruti'!! I love it.. I think it can be applied to any religion, org., group.... you think that you've found 'it', the path to Truth... you may not understand it or realize it... but, you still are in this over-enthused mode to spread it to others and convince others.
But.. yeah.. overall.. i just love the feeling of being here..... I felt like I was part of this huge multi-pronged social movement that's going to change India... and at the base of it all is an internal evolution... through internal exploration. Of course, there are those that will 'puppet' it.. and follow it like a religion... and worship Babaji... but on the whole.. there's no org., there's no money involved... Hopefully.. i'll write a blog entry about it.

26/10/2006-29/10/2006 - Questions, thoughts, ideas during the Sammelan
- Many people here, and it seems like when people speak... are here doing adhyan of jeevan vidya. They are trying to understand the proposal fully. I believe that with this viewpoint, is that one must understand the proposal and then be able to 'check it' though one's own exploration. They are checking to see if 'this is it'... some 'want' it to be it, some are able to 'check it' unbiasly.
But, my process... i'm attempting to do an adhyan of reality. The jeevan vidya proposal is definitely a valuable tool that points me in the direction of what to look for... it draws my attention to these aspects... dhyaan aakarshan. But there are other things that draw my attention to aspects of reality as well.... relationships, conversations, work, activities, books, etc. In the end, everything could be used for this... and for this, a really high sense of awareness is needed.
-The world has two directions... one, we continue to overconsume, the prime purpose of life is to jump from one pleasure to another, the prime factor in business is profit, the gap between the rich and the poor continues to increase, the environment continues to be destroyed, indigenous people continue to be displaced, depression and loneliness and insecurity continue amongst the 'haves', poverty and aspirations of being able to CONSUME conintue amongst the have-nots, families continue to split-up, relationships continue to 'created' and 'ended', mental activity is seen as superior to phsyical labour, etc.
Or two, each individual begins to explore him/herself... and see that his/her true aspiration is to be continually happy/content/harmonious/at peace (basically to feel good at each moment!)... To do so, one must work at harmony at all levels -- within themselves, with their body, within their family, with society, with nature, and with existence. All problems must be viewed holistically... or the only thing that we usually do is solve one problem, but create 3 others.
Now.. my question.... is how can we win this battle?? They have mass media, they have advertisements on every billboard. They can scale up. What do we have?
- There's this concept that those with a higher level of understanding have the responsibility of facilitating those with 'less' understanding to look deeper and understand. That that is the reality of things. For some reason... although, sometimes, i may see the reality of it... it doesn't sit well with me. Maybe, it's because how does one really know who has the 'higher level' of understanding? And the problem usually arises when one things they've attained this 'high' level of understanding, and then tries to sermonize with others. Mutual sharing is what I'm all about. Everyone wants to share experiences, thoughts, ideas, etc. that they hold valuable for them.... and from this mutual sharing, one hopes that a higher level of understanding can be worked towards.
- What does harmony with nature really mean? Is it relative to us.. as human beings... and our survival? For example, creating air pollution... we're 'destructing' nature from our point-of-view, because for our survival, air pollution is damaging. But, the 'reality' of it... aren't we just 'changing' nature? We've taken something from nature, changed its form, and then spit it back out into the atmosphere. Who's to say that we're creating 'disharmony'?
- Concept: there's an intrsinsic value to every unit. Again, this is relatve to survival of human beings. But, isn't it also relative to circumstance? For example, a handkerchief can be used to blow one's nose, but, it also can be used in a game of 'steal the bacon'. So, do even 'man-made' (nothing is really made by man, we only change the forms of materials already available in nature) things have an intrinsic value?
- What is the reality of relationships? I enjoy being in quality relationships w/ people where I can be completely natural. I enjoy getting respect, and at the moment, I enjoy it even when people give me respect that I may not deserve (overevaluation) -- what does getting 'respect' mean? How about.. I enjoy when someone expresses respect for me.
Emotions seem to also be tied w/ having a person physically with you... so possibly tied with the physical human body... being close to you. If I see my mom in the physical form, emotions rush up. This can also happen if I imagine the person... but it's usually not as vivid. How about emotions that are attached to physical things... like a 'gift' given by a special person. Everytime you see the 'gift', emotions arise. I understand that that emotion is actually related to the person, but the physical thing, the 'gift' still causes the emotion. Finally... what is an emotion? What is a feeling?
How about the 'adrenaline' rush? It seems like everyone desires that 'adrenaline' rush.. which goes above and beyond the baseline happiness. For different people, it can be different things -- bungy jumping, sports, performing on stage, sex, extreme challenges.. etc. But, that adrenaline rush.. that desire for the 'spike' in feeling, even though one knows it's only momentary... what about that?
- Observation - my enthusiasm, my 'mood' is often dependent on my environment, and the people around me.
- Observation - there are times when i want to stand out, be special, be recognized. There are other times when I want to 'fit in'. Then, there are those times when I am trying to 'fit in', but in actuality, I am trying to 'stand out' by doing so..... such a perverted world, the mind!
- Many are suffering right now TODAY... EXTREMELY (dying of starvation, disease, rotting to death, etc.) --> what are the immdiate solutions? What are the temporary fixes while we are in the process of the long-term solution?
- Observation - In India, small business owners often don't pay much attn. to the customers. This actually gets to me, pisses me off sometimes.... is this a cultural-thing, because we're so used to great 'customer care' in the US?
- It is easy to identify problems, sadness, pain, 'disharmony' - but very difficiult to be aware of harmony. This seems like human nature in various dimensions (health - we only notice when there are problems, protests - we only attack when we see problems, pain - I'm only aware of my foot if it hurts, etc.).. It seems like the problems have a 'source'.. while the harmony is just what always exists in the background.
Also, as human beings, we only seem to attack the problems, instead of trying to sustain the harmony. Again.. this can be seen in various fields. Swadhyaya is an interesting example of how problems in villages were solved without ever addressing them. Alcohol, the status of women, caste, etc... all these problems were diminished.. by working on the 'solution', and not the 'problem'.

- The following is my notes from my 'sharing' at the JV Sammelan:
> My introduction
> Why I came to India - internal and external exploration, and figure out what i can do with my life to make it meaningful.... all of this was before being introduced to the jeevan vidya proposal
> Problem with giving it a title - by calling it 'jeevan vidya' I think we are putting it in a box; 'he's a part of Vidya, he's not' - there's no reality to this statement; maanyataa that those that have been introduced to JV are more samajdhaar than those that have not --> something to start being aware of; if someone uses different words than JV words -> their meaning can still be the same; claim that it has all the answers/solution without reaching full samajhdaari - how is this possible?
> My process - my efforts to do, to live, and to understand are all taking place simultaneously; I don't see any order to the various levels - self, family, society, nature... all of these efforts are also taking place simultaneously
> Future
1) more sharing about the PROCESS of adhyan, not just the content - what has been the personal process of Ganesh-ji? Arya-ji? Karan-Singhji? Sapna? etc.; is the process different for each individual, or the same?
2) more methods of dhyaan aakarshan other than just the shivir-format - expressions varies depending of situation, circumstance... the meaning can stay the same.; Gap Year College, Youth Shivirs, and InSPIRE are attempts of dhyaan aakarshan in various formats
3) In cities, and the US --> Youth - this is where I see my role; why youth - figuring out their lives, they don't have any responsibilities yet, still open-minded and have choices before them; when they are disillusioned with the current flow of the world and see that there could be something that is meaningful and satisfying, then what... where are the spaces?
-- Swaraj Shiksha Kendra / Swaraj School - land, education, farming, etc.; break barriers - rural-urban, boy-girl, Hindi-English, rich-poor --> must first break these barriers in our mind, that is where they originate